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Ready to throw in the towel?

February 10, 2014

Hit a brick wall lately? Wonder why you torment yourself with all this dream stuff? Sick of working so hard and getting very little in return?

“Suck it up, buttercup.”

A wonderfully wise woman I know said she tells her daughter this when she’s feeling like giving up. I needed to hear these words and the Universe knew it. That’s why I was there when she said it.

Recently, I’ve had a few roadblocks thrown in my path on my way to becoming a full-time author and writing coach. Some of these barriers appeared to be impenetrable, like there was no way around. What did I do? Well, I rolled up in a ball on the couch and bawled like a baby. I wanted to give up, throw in the towel, close up shop, and go back to the corporate world that I knew is safe, boring, and soul-depleting.

The Universe Speaks Softly at First

Contrary to my old ways, I decided to just “be” for a few days after I encountered this so-called impenetrable rock block. My old self would have searched frantically for the phone number of someone I knew at WeAreAllABoutMoney, Inc. and pleaded for an opportunity to speak with someone about a job. This time I just sat, meditated, and licked my emotional wounds…but I never stopped writing. As I was writing in my favorite cafe listening to my favorite playlist and the song “A Change Will Do You Good” by Sheryl Crow came on. Then when I was meditating I got the whisper in my head, “Listen.” Subtle hints left by the Universe.

Then the Universe Speaks Louder

Still not believing the cues the Universe was leaving for me, I continued to not do anything. And can I tell you how hard this is for a recovering control freak? Well, it is HARD! I was battling my ego who kept telling me, “Don’t just sit there! Do something! Your dream is not working out like you thought it would…which I tried to warn you about. It’s time to give up! Go back to what you know! Pick up the PHONE!” But the Universe spoke louder than my ego. One of my clients wrote this to me:

“You provide such an important service, and your help and involvement have taken me to places that I know I wouldn’t have reached otherwise. Your coaching has been a gift.”

By the way, I am HONORED to work with this woman. She is a gifted writer. Read her recent beautifully heart-breaking short story here: Paper Hearts.

Soon the Universe Yells in Your Face

You will keep getting the message over and over from the Universe. Instead of a subtle cue or whisper it will be like a hammer hitting you over the head. You will have to deal with the consequences of not paying attention.

Last night my husband and I were watching our favorite show The Walking Dead. We’ve been holding our breath from the mid-season finale two months ago to see what is going to happen to everyone. FYI: no spoiler alerts here but I will say that Michonne’s story line was EXACTLY what I am going through right now: am I going to take a risk and move through this road block or am I going to join and ranks of zombies and become one of the undead? It’s not going to be easy. In fact, it will probably be one of the hardest things I ever try to do. I’m going to have to work for it harder and harder because the roadblocks will keep coming. They are there to help me continually focus on how badly I want this.

When I look back at what I’ve done since I embarked on this journey one year ago, I’ve helped three people bring their books into this world. I’ve written and published another book that 1,000 people have downloaded. I’ve finished my novel based on my mother’s life…and I’m getting ready to pitch it to agents at the San Francisco Writer’s Conference in three days. There is still so much more I need to do.

The only road block I had to blast through was my state of mind. Period. All I had to do was, “Suck it up, buttercup.”

WHAT ABOUT YOU? Are you ready to throw in the towel or are you ready to suck it up? Tell me in the comments on my blog. You’ll be surprised how empowering it is to talk about it and release it. 


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